I Might Not Color In The Lines But My Intentions Are Good…

What’s up, Peculiars?

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If you read the About Me page and the Tag, You’re It!! post, then you know that I initially started this project as a self development site in which I wanted to find my purpose and track my progress. There were several areas I was interested in which all had to do with my creativity…fashion, home decor, art, make up, etc. I also wanted to use this as a launching pad to explore other interests such as travel and photography, to name a few. I believe the reason I didn’t complete this a couple of years ago is because there was no focus. At the time I thought I could only focus on one thing and in turn, I didn’t feel comfortable with doing anything at all. I knew all of those things added something to my life and I wasn’t confident with trying anything until I got advice that confirmed that I didn’t have to choose. I soon realized that the little focus I had was all about me and my progress and that needed to change; it needed to be expanded again…

So my intention with this page is to challenge myself which I’ve already begun about 6 months before the birth of We, the Peculiars. I was introduced to a group affectionately know as “The LCA” (Life Changing Alliances). The LCA is a video conference call I get on with a group of amazing individuals every weekday morning, 9am to 10am EST. The founder, Kemp Satchell and co-founder, Jamial Mumford started this as a way for people to read more so they began reading a couple of years ago and it grew; not just in numbers but in purpose. Their motto is to change the individual so that the individual will be empowered to change their world. You may wonder, “How is that accomplished through reading books?” It’s accomplished when you gather like-minded people who are ready to take responsibility for their lives by facing their truth and are willing to actually do the work. It’s really so much more than reading books, it’s about the connections we’ve established.The people on the call are really transparent and hungry. We simply “go in.” If the book encourages us to write goals, complete vision boards, speak encouraging words to ourselves in the mirror, etc. we will simply do it because we are ready for change. If you’re interested, please download the Zoom app from Apple or your Play Store for Android users. The login is 404-333-8430. It’s free but you’ll get a wealth of information. You can also visit them on Facebook, Life Changing Alliances or LifeChangingAlliances.com. Since I’ve joined, I have expanded my thinking and have taken responsibility for where I am.

Along with the call, I believe there’s a spiritual shift taking place. We’ve been talking about wineskins in my congregation (Jubilee Worship Center-trust, its the 💣) and when there’s new wine🍷 you have to use a new wineskin. If you put new wine in old wineskins, it will tear because it has already expanded to capacity. The new wine, therefore; needs a new wineskin so that it can “grow” with it.  I see this new wineskin as the new dispensation of time and how you can’t “pour” the same old things in this new dispensation of time…it just won’t work. You have to do new things with this new shift. And boy, was it about to be a shift!!

 *Jubilee is located at:

496 Friendship Road
Friendship, MD 20758

“And no one puts new wine into old wineskins. For the wine would burst the wineskins, and the wine and the skins would both be lost. New wine calls for new wineskins.” Mark:2:22 NLT

So when I got word that unofficially my job was ending, I have to admit,  I initially freaked out but then I remembered that I should’ve left a long time ago, especially when people would show up to my desk saying that “I’m so creative and that they don’t understand why I worked there.” Even as I look around my cubicle, I see Post Its that read “Mistakes are necessary to get to the destination. They provide stepping stones. Don’t be scared to step out. Fail forward,” “I am a genius and I apply my wisdom,” “Make your look legendary,” “Face your fear, find your reality,” and my personal favorite, “May the space between who I am and where I want to be inspire me,” and I realize that I have been a comfortable coward. I knew I wasn’t supposed to be there as long as I had and all that wisdom was overlooked day after day.

Now that this shift has taken place, I can no longer be complacent or apprehensive. I have to embrace what God is and is doing in my life. I’m pouring new wine into this new dispensation that will not tear or hurt me or others but will uplift. You’ve heard or at least have read plenty of times that I’m creative but what I haven’t said was that I never saw myself behind a desk for the rest of my life. (I guess you got that, huh?😊) I always saw my career as something that “didn’t seem like work,” but bills came and to work I went. Although, I’m embarrassed to say, it took something catastrophic like losing my job again for statements like ” Just Do It” and “Do the Work” to click. Well, I haven’t quite lost my job yet. But, I find myself at the age old “fork in the road.” “What do I do for money? Do I do this or that?” These questions find their way in my thoughts frequently to the point that I have to consciously change my attention. My experience is in Corporate America but my heart is in this project.

I know most people would say, “Do this on the side and find another job.” My argument is that I’m really not motivated to job search, interview, beg and plead for deserved raises or any of the sort. I currently work two jobs and I want time and financial freedom but with reality sinking in, until my dreams can fund my future, I have to find the motivation. After my week of melt downs, I came back to myself and REMEMBERED that God is in control and that He abundantly supplies all of my needs according to the riches of His glory in Christ Jesus and with that, this website started. His word promised me that He would lead me and guide me into all truth and I truly believe that. So I’ve decided to do all that I know to do. I will move forward with this website and I will apply for jobs and rely on Him to open and close the doors for me to walk through. This IS a journey but I’m not alone…

This journey is about me…it’s about my shortcomings and my coming ups, my failures and triumphs and how God will and has used those failures for my good but it’s also about yours too! More yours, than mine because my destiny is wrapped up in yours. When you win, I win! So I will be trying new things, I will say “Yes” to life opposed to chilling on the sidelines. We have one life and I’m determined to make the best out of it. I will do things that scare me and if no one follows me, I’ll go alone because I’m worth it. I might not always color in the lines but my intentions are good and that’s what makes me peculiar.

-Beebz👊

 

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