Last week was tough for me so it’s weird that the title of this post is about living loved because I didn’t feel the love. In fact, after being sick for almost 2 weeks straight, I was exhausted. On top of that, I was having a pity party as we do when we have to witness things happen for others that you felt should be happening for yourself. Wait, don’t side eye me!!😒 I know I’m not the only one… Anyway, I’m telling my besties about this and I realized, “Oh snap, this is the month of speech.”😲 I need to chill so that’s what I had planned…just chilling, no plans, maybe cleaning perhaps; but this was the first weekend in a long time that I’ve had with absolutely no plans…that changed around 2pm.
Around that time, I was on the phone with Jen. She was trying to figure out what to do with her day as well and I threw out there that I wanted to visit this gem shop that I heard of a couple of months ago. Although it was kinda late, since it was closing around 5pm and about 40 minutes away, we decided to go anyway. I mean we really had nothing else to do but clean anyway so, to Solomon’s we went. The ride was actually calming and the day was beautiful. We ended up at Inner Equinox around 3:30.
The whole purpose for this was because I wanted the stones that were in the breastplate of the priest. In the breastplate there are 12 stones represented as the 12 tribes. If you read one of my last posts, you would know that each tribe is associated with a month on the Hebraic calendar. Getting the stones isn’t something that is necessary to have but when I study the months, I’m intrigued to find out what the stone means. I find it always falls in line with the theme of the month. For example, this month is the month of Nisan which is about speech and putting your best foot forward (right foot)💃🏽, the stone associated with the month is Blue Topaz which helps the wearer to clearly articulate the thoughts and feelings one needs to communicate and make clear distinctions about what one does and does not want in one’s life. So I figured it would be cool to have.
I’m not being spooky or anything. I’m not praying to the stones. The stones are a resource, they have a vibration (these days everyone wants good vibes) they aren’t magic. Based on the characteristic or quality found in that stone, they bring the energy that you may need to create the atmosphere you want but we still have to do the work. We aren’t off the hook. It doesn’t do the work for us.
I guess at this point, I should also say that God is the Creator, He is the Source. Again, the stones and anything else is just a resource. So don’t worry, I’m not doing anything crazy with these stones, please don’t get it twisted. Even the Bible says, that His people are destroyed for lack of knowledge (Hosea 4:6) It goes on to say that “Because you have rejected knowledge, I also reject you as my priests; because you have ignored the law of your God, I also will ignore your children.” The thing is, it’s not like the knowledge isn’t out there for us but often its not accepted cause folk wanna be super deep and label everything demonic. Everything is not demonic and the very tools God has given His people as aids go unnoticed by His people because of their rejection of it. They tend to turn their backs on it and then when someone else picks it up and runs with it, they usually are the first to get an attitude and are destroyed because what God meant for them to walk in they’ve turned it down in ignorance…Naw, not me. Ignorance is not bliss, it’s hardship and it’s even more stupid when it’s hardship you didn’t have to go through. If God put these stones on the breastplate of the priest, I wanna know why because I’m a priest. He doesn’t waste anything and He’s not a God that does stuff just to do it, so I got my stones💎 and I got more than 12 and I’ll probably will be getting more.
Not that long ago, Mr. Ron (my Mentor’s husband) gifted me with one of the (Lapis) blue stones and the darker stone next to it, I’m excited that I found this place so I can pay it forward.
After getting the gems, We got Rita’s (which was bomb💣) and we people watched. We got food after that and I ended up hanging out with family for the rest of the night. Sunday, I went to service as normal. Although, everyone looked beautiful in their Easter fits, I completely forgot and I realized how removed I am from those holidays. I don’t celebrate Easter so I wasn’t even thinking and wore jeans to service which was no biggie.
**PSA- Just because I don’t celebrate Easter, doesn’t mean that I don’t believe that Christ paid the price for my sins and that He rose from death on the 3rd day because I do. I’m not Jewish, I’m Christian but more than anything…I AM a seed of Abraham…I do believe that Easter is a pagan holiday and for that reason I don’t celebrate it. Don’t debate me on this! You have your beliefs and I have mine. If you want to respectfully know more about mine, I have no problem with sharing but I will not be moved, convinced or shamed for my beliefs…Beliefs that I’m not trying to convince you to take on. Exposure never hurt anyone but I’m not forcing anyone to take on my views and you shouldn’t either** Now back to our regularly scheduled posting procedures…I have a #OOTD post coming up on my fit. It was slight but you guys seem to like them so I’ll keep them coming.
Service was great as usual, we did a forgiveness exercise that Jen and I did while we were in the cabins of Tennessee with the LCA where we had to write down 1 person that we could think of that offended us. In the cabins, I wrote my name…not that anyone else had never offended me but because I allowed those people to offend me and because I’ve done more damage to myself by allowing things to take place then anyone could ever do to me, it was me that needed my forgiveness. Nothing is done to you unless you allow it and I allowed it for too long.
But this time, we were instructed to make a list of any and everyone who may have ever done anything…it was a long list but I was excited that it was burned “For they knew not what they did.” I forgave them and myself just as Jesus had so many years ago.
I also saw some friends I hadn’t seen in a minute, they looked amazing and it was just good to see them again. I love it when you catch up and it’s like old times, no love lost even though you don’t talk as often…that’s love.
Oh and I have to give big ups to my mentor, Mrs. Deborah Henderson. She is so amazing you guys!! She’s the person who realized my gift for teaching and she took me in as her own and started teaching me Hebrew. Under her, I started teaching the Hebrew Aleph bet at our monthly Rosh Chodesh meetings. Last week when we were preparing for our Passover Seder, I was telling her about the blog and the review I’m doing for Uninvited. When I came in today, she handed me the Study Guide and the video to go with it. I appreciate that so much. It’s not so much of materialistic aspect but just that she heard my heart and how excited I was about it made me feel so special. So I’m spending the rest of the day exploring these items but I’d thought I’d get on here and post my amazing, unplanned weekend. By the way, I speak crop failure to those negative seeds I may have planted earlier in the month and I declare that my speech will be praiseworthy for the remainder of Nisan.
I hope you guys had an amazing weekend as well. Let me know in the comments section, promise I don’t bite. 😉