Yo, yo, yo
So I decided to do a challenge. I haven’t done many challenges of any sort but have had challenges. I think you feel me. If you read my post, you know me. I put everything out there, so you know there’s been a lot of life’s challenges going on. You know that my dog, Harlem, has been diagnosed with kidney failure, you know that I have a crush and that I tried to be brave and put myself out there and got friend zoned, you know I’m not dating right now. You would also know that I was laid off of my job where I worked over 10 years during which time I also had a part time job and was exhausted but had started getting my finances together. You know that I took the layoff as a release from God and in faith pursued my dream of creating this blog but then you would also know that it didn’t become a massive success; on the contrary, I had to take out money from my 401k to stay afloat for the year, I was outta work and with that came a tax issue and an onslaught of other financial issues. Finally, you would know that I no longer have a relationship with my father and my sisters because of the relationship I no longer have with him and everyday I wonder if I made the right decision.
But this year has also been full of the grace of God. I’m still here! We can have a praise break with just that. I. AM. STILL. HERE. I am not under my circumstances. Anyone who knows me knows I don’t have bad days and just when I wanted to break down, I had an urge to get in God’s face. That’s when I saw a challenge on Instagram and decided to do it. I also invited two single friends. I’m truly excited about this and I plan on letting you know what I get outta each day.
Today, I prayed for my future husband and I’m not gonna lie my prayer was a little shaky. Typically, I would pour my heart out to God but I hadn’t been doing that lately because I was losing faith with all that had been going on but more than that, I outright avoided talking to God about a spouse because I was tried of talk. It seemed to be more like begging than asking, believing, decreeing and expecting so years ago I just decided to shut it down. I got tired of getting words (prophecies) about a mate, expecting him to come and nothing changing but I always held out hope for 1 or 2 people. There were the only 2 men that I would even think about entertaining again, Perry and the crush; but now, they aren’t options. So I had to look at my life and decide if I was okay with staying single or if I was willing to do something different and it looks like I’ll be doing something different.
Here’s the schedule:
If you’d like to join the 5 day challenge of praying for your future spouse, click the link: www.prayforyourfuturespouse.com and if there’s anything else you’d like to know or see me post, please comment and I’ll be sure to get back with you. If you’ve ever done a similar challenge also let me know about your experience in the comments section, I’d love to hear about your experience. Love you.